message saved as draft.

i have been quoted at saying, 'i'm a crazy person.' while the meaning behind what i'm actually trying to say and what gets interpreted may be some what blurred in translation.. sometimes i really feel like a crazy person.

hm? why?

sometimes i feel like the way that i see the world, feel moments (i.e. beauty and sunshine, nature and live shows), and hear music are impossible for me to describe; as though no one else on the planet truly understands how it hits me, how i feel. maybe it's really just my words that fail me, that make it impossible for me to really describe the moment. maybe it's a slight bit of insecurity in wondering if you (or person i am trying to tell) will think i really am a crazy person, who has taken their passion for music a little too far. or maybe it's because some things are just meant to be that close to you, that impossible to share. maybe some things are simply meant to be a little moment in time just for you. to make your heart sing.

well, i had a moment. and i HAD to share. people come and go, and my heart for them rarely changes. i find myself writing a lot of letters (or thinking about writing a lot of letters) to people who i 'shouldn't' talk to anymore. old friends, old flames, you name it. so on this day, i wrote a message to try and describe this moment... but saved is as draft. it never got sent and i guess, other than this little blog, won't be sent. i don't know that the original person it was intended for will ever receive the message, but..i'll share it with you. because i think if we can try to describe those holy-crap-did-you-see/hear/feel-that-too moments, maybe we won't feel so crazy. so, in taking the risk of sounding like a total nerd, here is the message i never quite sent:

sometimes its like I can't turn the music loud enough. I just want it to be bigger and louder and resonate deeper in my soul. How is that even possible..to love something so much, to wish to pull beauty that near.. I guess I'll keep turning it louder, until ifigure it out.


this song (below) is what prompted the original message. there is no doubt, especially if you know me, that there are an unending list of songs that fill the role of making my heart just-about-explode. this one, however, is just stupid beautiful. take a moment and listen to all of it. then feel free to tell all of your friends about the new irishman you just fell in love with.